Revelations at church after escorting Geri to class

Dear Heavenly father, thank you for the impressions though hast given me this day. I am grateful for Jesus Christ who died for me. Not the death of this world which is final and fruitless, but a death he knew would lead to new life. I am grateful that he suffered for me so much so that I could live. His death was not in vain his death was one he knew he could call back his life yet he knew he had to give up His precious life in this world and suffer all that this body can feel and go through the entire process of the shut down and lifelessness of a body that is my mortal and the rest of those in this world feel. I am grateful for the soldiers who have given their lives and the other soldiers who carry the heavier burden of carrying on their memory and justifying in their minds and hearts the cause for which they died 💔. Which reminds me of the weight. The weight we must carry in remembering the death of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Sunday, November 10, 2019

Agency is the most beautiful part of the gospel of Jesus Christ.  Because of it, as Joseph Smith said we are free.  Parents of children want to take away agency when they know they will not make the right guy choice.  But it is curious that the same parents who want to harbor their children from the burden of choosing wrong also are the ones who shy away and seek to protect their children from the effects of those choices.  Heavenly Father knows we cannot become perfect unless we are free.  His plan works because he dies not hide us from the effects of our choices, that is, unless and to the degree which we repent.

Journal Saturday, November 9 2019

Last night I thought about how stable God is.  He plants his promises in our hearts and watches them grow.  As men, we foolishly think that God will not come through.  We think he has forgotten about us. We think that the creator of heaven and Earth will somehow not able to come through on the things he has promised us. How foolish we are? God does not forget he does not sorrow or sleep he always keeps his word. Last night was really nice I had peace in my heart as I walked to my children's room. I looked out the window at the top of the stairs and saw a star. I knew that the man who put that star in the sky would surely keep his promises he made to me. Joey was very cute last night she made a train set that went through the small dollhouse. She got upset when Lily was playing with him and tried to change the layout of the track. But I told him he would have to take a bench if he could not play with Lily. He immediately improved.

We watched avengers and then Joey went up to his bed. I came upstairs and prayed for him that he would have all that he needs and that his life would be filled with love. I prayed for Lily for the special girl that she is and the light that I see in her heart that I would be able to Foster that light and help her grow. I prayed for Maylee for the wonderful girl that she is and that her dreams would come true and that the tooth fairy would visit her.

The tooth fairy did come last night. Jerry also called me last night as I was falling asleep. I knew it was late so I did not answer. Jerry was out with Brianne last night at the Irvine spectrum she and Jerry had a good time eating and being with friends. I just texted Jerry if she wanted to do lunch. She has not responded.

I am here on the temple grounds. After I drop the children off for their visit I thought I might go and get Jeff to to learn c programming some more. I also thought to go pick up breakfast and bring it to Jerry. But I knew that I am not allowed to go to Jerry's house. It is a good rule. As I drove home listening to general conference, I felt prompted to drive down the 55 freeway. I thought about learning to fly. I thought about going to my work. But then I thought I need to go to the temple and feast on the words of Christ for they will tell me as the promise says all things that I should do.